I named this chapter specifically because of a recent experience I had. I was organizing a ritual/gathering for some friends of mine who for some time had been trying to get pregnant. As the process was complicated for them the task had been arduous, and for the two of them conceiving was starting to feel more like a chore than a joy. Although they wanted the baby immensely, they were worn out by the process. Recognizing that the success of anything depends on love, I decided to organize a gathering to support them in their intention.
The week leading up to the event I started to hear this little voice inside of my head saying, “But what about me?” It surprised me, but the voice was very strong, so I knew it had an important message. “Now why would I be feeling this way?” I wondered. I don’t need a “Conception Circle”, as I had dubbed the event. “What do I need that I am not getting?” I asked myself.
Suddenly it dawned on me that this voice was trying to tell me that I felt depleted. In order to be able to give fully to my friends and this gathering, I needed to be full up. Putting out so much energy for their benefit without making sure I had what I needed was unacceptable to my Spirit.
Furthermore, I didn’t feel that coming from this place of depletion would add anything to their journey. “How can I fill up?” I questioned. Immediately I cleared a whole day on my schedule to take care of me. I meditated, wrote in my journal, and went to a near-by day spa. I spent the day soaking in the healing waters and giving myself all of the tender loving care I needed. By the time I got to the event, I felt clear and ready to offer.
It was a story one woman told during the circle that night that lead to the title of this chapter. She shared that during her Tai Chi classes her instructor, who is from the East had shared something he had noticed about the United States. He saw that people were very eager to give, but they never “take”, or replenish themselves. As a result, they offer from a very hollow place—never having filled up their own reserves of joy and love. The woman then led us in a very simple movement and imagination exercise, which involved receiving the joy and bounty of the universe through our naval and allowing it to fill us completely.
Given what I had experienced that week, her story was very powerful for me. It reminded me of how important it is to fill-up our own gas tanks. We need to take in goodness from the universe.
Stay tuned on more specifics on how to take in good from the universe after each step has been disclosed.
This is an excerpt from From Heartbreak to Wholeness: 12 Steps to Healing from Break-up. Stay tuned for more excerpts as Aimée walks you through the steps. Go to www.spreadingblessings.com to get your free ebook copy.
